So guess what? I'm going to be in Denver on New Years Eve, taking FSH shots and getting blood drawn. 

My nurse called today with my protocol! My goodness - I can't believe how excited that phone call got me! Yesterday at this time I was all blue and down in the dumps. Today I can't stop smiling at the thought of taking shots and growing my eggs! Ha! How many people do I know in real life who would be EXCITED at the thought of injections? Not many....

So I'm going to start Lupron and dexamethasone earlier in December, and Gonal-F and Menopur after Christmas. We need to get a couple of u/s and bloodwork appointments here in CA before we travel to Denver on Dec 31. My first appointment in Denver for IVF monitoring is on Jan 1, 2009. Fresh day, fresh year, fresh new beginning, with a new uterus. I'm almost willing to take that as a sign! 

The only thing I am concerned about is the dosage of Gonal F. I've been on 1 vial of Menopur and 300 iu of Gonal F for my last couple of IVF cycles. CCRM has me on 1 vial of Menopur and 150 iu of Gonal F. 

I am worried we won't get as many eggs as we need because of the lower dosage. I need to get extra eggs because of the number game we play with DH's translocation. We need as many as we can get for PGD, because our earlier PGD cycles have resulted in only 10% of the embryos being normal/ balances for transfer. I have emailed the nurse about my concerns, although I'm pretty sure they know what they're doing, and will get phenomenal results even with lower dosages, but I needed to ask. 

Now all I need to do is WILL time to fly. And of course look for tickets and accommodation, and figure out where we can leave Simba. 

I am also realizing the finality of this. This is it. Our last hurrah. Our final foray. So much rests on this one cycle. I'm so scared to hope, but hope I must, because that's what the world rests on. I am no exception. I hope.